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A New Year

Today is the third day of 2018. So far, my year has consisted of a 20 hour drive back from Phoenix, Arizona and a full day of working at home from the comfort of my bed. With a paid week vacation behind me, I am back at work and looking forward to a fresh start.

I'm not going to lie and say that 2017 was great. It was far from great. It had its moments, sure. But it was full of many upsetting and painful ones. I have never looked more forward to entering a new year and leaving the one behind me in the past.  I must say that I'm proud I managed to squeeze in some last minute changes in the last few weeks of 2017, including moving into a new place to claim my independence and entering a new chapter of my dating life.

I've done a complete turn around of where I started the year. I've made some small positive changes in the hopes that 2018 would be MY year. I don't want to start off the way I started last year. Side note: It feels so great to finally be able to refer to it in the past tense.

My mission this year is to be a complete new version of me. That is, the version that I have always been afraid of being. I want the real unafraid me to come out. The me that takes risks. The me that doesn't care what people think. The me that frankly does not give a shit. Sure, I'll give a shit, but I won't be so censored and concerned of the things I do or say. It's my life. I'm meant to make mistakes. I'm meant to come across people who will impact my life in one way or another. Why are we given a life if we don't live it fully? I can't just sit back and watch it pass by, constantly wishing I had done something and regretting not doing it later.

Easier said than done, right? Yes. Obviously, I won't accomplish half of the things I want to accomplish. But as long as I start somewhere, that is an accomplishment itself.

Here's to 2018 being the year I take charge and not let the year take charge of me.

Cheers.

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