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Embracing Uniqueness

This year has been quite a different one from what I'm used to. I've had to deal with things beyond my comprehension and I've learned things about myself along the way. One good thing that I've managed to gain from everything is that I've gotten a little more confident in my writing. I'm not at the place I would like to be, but I think I'm getting there. Part of my confidence stems from the professors that I've had. I've received a lot of feedback, both positive and constructive. I still can't consider myself a good writer because I think there's always room to develop and grow. Right now, I'm just trying to enjoy the summer break, but I think I should also use this time to come up with some ideas for a possible first novel. I have some ideas, but they're still not fully flushed out so I need to work on them some more. Writing a short story is more difficult than it seems, so a novel is going to take a lot of thought and a lot of drafts.

Apart from gaining more confidence in my writing, I've gained confidence in my own self. I've always felt different for not being into typical teenager/young adult things such as partying or drinking. I've tried it, but I never feel comfortable doing it. Everyone is into different things and I'm just not into the party scene. That's not to say I don't enjoy going to parties and dancing, because I do. I just don't like doing things for the sake of doing them, if that makes sense. I need to learn to embrace the way that I am. For one, I'm really shy and awkward and I've always hated that about myself, but I've learned that it isn't so terrible to be shy. I know it isn't good either since I've struggled with it my entire life and I've had difficulty trying to do simple things such as talk to people because of it. I've learned that I shouldn't let it define who I am. I know that I need to get better at my communication skills, but it's all a work in progress and we all learn in our own time. Getting close to graduation seems to put a lot of things into perspective and I just need to try to have a positive outlook and hope for the best.

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